Is it enough?

I've talked to one of my old friends way back. Somehow, I did manage to talk about the thing and it was for the whole frigin' four hours man! Whew! But ofcourse, names were changed a bit but the story's exact. Even she is wonderin' why that happened. Atleast it made me slightly feel all right. But was that enough? Uhhhg. I still want to yell it through the solidity of air. I think not all were said. yeah. So true.

Anyways, the exchage of thoughts and comments gave me bits of hope but more confusion. Why does this bother me that much huh? Inspite of that, the conversation with my friend is a help. I felt like talking to someone I don't know. And I think that idea is great and I'm planning to do more of it next time! :p But is this a nice idea at all? Will talking to someone I'm not close to help me with this nonsense? *sigh*

/hiding

Ohmy. I can't believe what I've done! I gave the URL to Jane. Anyways, it was my decision. Besides, I can't live like talking to a wall. I say it's no longer private right? Arrrg. This makes me hide it even more! Am I ashamed or what? My God. I really can't do this. Haaaaay. I'll have some time later to think it out. I'm kinda on a hurry so I'll catch up with you later. So sure I'm late with my appointment AGAIN.

*allyzamode*

Okay. Let me intruduce her to you.

To start with..

She's a silent young girl. Hmm, yes she is. She only talks to her friends inside the classroom. Approach her? Nah, I don't think so..she looks unapproachable.SWEAR! Everybody in that room is strucked with her intimidation. A smart woman, talented, middle class (but everyone thinks that she's more than that), one of the best faces in that place which she preffers to call the *zoo-like-hell*, and ofcourse...a popular one.

Geez. That's a heavy one ain't it? Detailing things may lighten you up of her breeze.

INTIMIDATING. Hmm. Yes, that little eleven year old student intimidates! Well, why wouldn't she? She's the Vice President of the class after all right? But she sounds/acts more like the President. Realizing that Miss President ain't that tough to nag the group, she shouldered the load quick ahead! That soothes her mind anyways. Shrewing her classmates make her glad in some ways. (Quite a demonic girl).

SMART. Ofcourse she is, ended up as the top two of their class. Having a tie with the Sweet President and another Girl Peer. Her name never gets lost in the honors list every quarter. Her teacher often give her an applause for she can manage to catch up with the exams though she had been absent for two days. I'm saying...not just catching up, she can even get a perfect score while the rest of the class scores a point or two lower than her. Tsk3.

TALENTED. That's all that she is at the first place. It's all about her talents. Yes. It's with an S. NUMBER ONE: She's an artist. She can draw, paint and do pretty hand crafts. Well, often times she becomes one of the school's representative in Drawing Contests. In internal affairs of this field, the 1st prize is always in her hands. NUMBER TWO: She's a singer. Might it run in the blood? Her ate is more of a nightingale than an ordinary human. Her mother was once the 'saligando' in the Glee Club years ago of her time. Her Father...the videoke king! Yeah! Her little sister which is a voice-a-like of her ate. Even her cousins! None of them is out of tune!

But Allyza didn't hear herself sing. One of her friends in the class told her about her nice voice but it seems that it didn't plug-in to her brain. Humility overpowered her esteem. Being a singer is not a big deal for her after all. Who needs another singer when in fact there are millions of them waiting to be discovered here in the world. Besides..for her, the voice she has is not that good compared to her sister's. But it didn't bother her after all. She's not really into singing anyways. NUMBER THREE: A crafty young lady. Her hand crafts are really good and unique. That's why her school pojects always score high because she has a way with it. She buys her organic crafting materials in a store which only she and the Class President knows where to locate! ^________^ NUMBER FOUR: A drama queen. Yeah. In group presentations. She always get the lead role. She's even the one who writes the script and directs the group not to mention that 50% of the production is by her. NUMBER FIVE: Lastly. Atleast she can dance. Actually, she REALLY hates dancing, only that dancing doesn't hate her that much. She is one of the ladies who presented the folk dance 'Gaway-gaway' in school. Yeah. It's even her first time to explore her little talent.

MIDDLE CLASS. Being more than that is what they all say. But truely she's not. She ain't a millionaire. Maybe her giving heart made you conclude that she's more than a middle class. She gives away all that's not in the list of her exigency to those who are really in need. A best friend of her's once commented in her fs account saying "she's my Banko Sentral ng Pilipinas".

A GIRL WITH A FACE. She might posses a pretty face but she feeds a monster inside. Hahaha! Don't freak out! This is just a normal thing here in the world. Yeah. Many of her classmates admire her but she doesn't like 'em. They're not good enough for her..she says. Yeah. She's mean at this point. She really is a kind of a big deal. Men get intimidated by her. Well, no man is strong enough to admit their feelings for her. Well, there's one. The smartest guy in class. Hmm, she says that it's only because he has something to burst out...and being a nice friend of hers. She SLIGHTLY liked him. And that's a cheesy fact! Uhh, she doesn't like most of her classmates. Her class freaks her out. She labeled it as the ZOO-LIKE-HELL. Comparing her classmates to animals is what she does all the time. She might hate them that much eh? Uhm not really. One of her top secrets is that SHE HAD A GREAT TIME with them. She can't admit it and she won't either.

MISS POPULAR. In a sense that ALL her best friends are in the other section. The section that most of her classmates look up to. And the thought of idolizing the other section draws a devil on her face. She doesn't want her classmates to be just like the outcasted shadows of the other group. But this fact isn't a barrier for her to streghten her friendship towards the *famous people*. In her class, she is noted to be the closest student to the other section.

Well, she became even more popular when she committed her self to be a runner-up as a Vice President of the Student Body. The room-to-room campaign was the reason behind this popular thingy madness.

Well yeah. That is her in detail.

Some may say that she's living perfectly. A life that'll have the motiff of contentment, that doesn't have to ask for more except for an eternal life and an everlasting power. Yeah, she's almost everything. She has the best*est* friends in town. The kind of people that'll be treasured by a light hearted girl like her. Also the kind of people whom she's feeling free to tell her secrets about, especially those STORMY parts of her life that even you couldn't imagine because you never expected it from her. She really likes her best friends!

...But still, this girl is really unapproachable to look at. And she's NOT friendly at all. Hmmm. Is this the one that's keeping her from interacting with more of life's wonderful circumstances?

There's A First Time For Everything :)

This is my first time to blog. Seriously. No. I've posted few blogs before but those were just a bunch of crap. I used to say that blogging was some kind of a joke. I mean, duh, why would I have my diary feasted by everyone? But now I'm eating my own words. The hell's gotten into me now. Honestly, one reaon I made this nonsense because of..let's say, my inner breakdown. An overview of me says I'm a happy person.Outside. Yea, that's what I show them. Sometimes, I ignore what I want deep inside. I'm the kind of a person that lets her brain rule rather than her heart. Just playing practical and safe. But no let me correct it. I'm not playing because I'm not a game. Pride covers 50 percent of my principle in life. Hmmm, now is this good or bad?